Wow, it seems like yesterday I was doing the last post and the date says October ?? Time Flyes when your school schedules you a extra period of teaching, and then the holidays and BOMB!! Your husband has a stroke (more under a separate post), your mom gets stuck on the floor all night long because she won't push her "I've fallen and I can't shut up button" until morning because she doesn't want to wake you up and bother you. Funny thing about low o2 levels, they make you confused. Btw it also makes your liver stop working and your congestive heart failure flare up, top that with an ecoli uti and no food for 36 hours, and viola! You earn yourself an ambulance ride and 10+days in the hospital... (that's mom for ya, ever the martyr.). See, if I don't say my mom and my husband it can be someone else's problem, even if only figuratively.
I am becoming more aware everyday, that my life has been changed permanently. After a stroke (even not your own), I find that I view the world from a much different perspective. Things like money, don't mean as much, time is the precious commodity. It has caused me to re evaluate my priorities and I am slowly learning that $ is just a means to an end. The ever popular bread for life's sandwich. It can make life yummy warm and comfortable, or it can be vexing, dry, and damn quick to mold on the day you really wanted that last piece for toast!
(waiting on the dryer is a bitch, when all you want is more sleep and to lay down and relax.)
People I love snap at me, my husband doesn't laugh and kid around like he used to, the teenagers are sullen and demanding, and it seems no one knows how to put away whatever they are finished using- including food that needs refrigeration... Dishes? The fairies must come and clean up after you because you never put your shit away or wash what you used in the first place. When I go to bed and the kitchen is sparkling(happy me) and get up to half a dozen dishes left out not washed food cementing itself to the counter, it makes the morning tough, even if they did let you sleep until 8am.... When you wanted to sleep ALL day!,
